Sunday, 26 February 2012

So sick of it this week, it has been one thing after another and I am not built to take it anymore. There was a time when I used to strive on it. Had three jobs and never sat down, was super organized and never flustered. Now if the weather changes I am either shouting or crying!!
I am supposed to be going to see the GP on Monday for my 6mth review thing. He hauls you in then sends you out again, that is stressing me no end. He never listens to me, brushes off anything I am worried about and refuses to let me have blood glucose strips to keep my diabetes under control.
Seems all the doctors where I live are the same as the last one was a pain in the arse too. I complained and got struck off so am too scared to complain to the new one incase the same happens again. So now I sit stressing about seeing him until I have been and got it out of the way for another 6 months. Why the hell I have to keep going is beyond me as he does nothing when I am there!!
Then there is all the worry about the overhaul of the benefit system and we need doctors in our corner to back us up. Yeah right fat chance of mine ever actually helping me, DH asked for help to have the medical doc come to us instead of him having to drive miles and was told no. Whereas a friend of mine didn't even ask her doc and he offered it straight away.
We need to move to a bigger house in a better area and all the stress will fade away.........................I hope.

Monday, 20 February 2012

Hello again hello.............half past silly and once again I am wondering why I am wide awake. There has got to be some sort of alarm system that I can use to remind me to take my meds surely? Have been feeling like poo for the entire half term holidays. I had hoped to utilise my DH and get some things done but I felt like crap and spent most of the time in bed watching films on television. 

I wish we had some magic motivation pill or something, that could put fibro in a box for a week so I could actually achieve something. It really is infuriating when your mind never stops twirling and thinking of things to do and say, and either you are too drained to do them or forget them entirely.

The latest brainwave of the government to get the benefit scrounging scum (the disabled to you and I) off benefits is to put us into full time work for nothing. If we don't do as we are told our money is stopped. Have they not thought, if we could do a full time bloody job we wouldn't be on sodding benefits!!!!!

Can't wait to see who is going to employ me when on a good day I can't string a legible sentence together, can't lift things, can't hold a phone or my arm locks and spasms and I can't string a legible sentence together, can't stand, can't walk, can't drive, can't sleep at night so need naps I the day.........and so on, gonna get a great catch with me aren't they?